I'm not sure that anyone reads this blog anymore, and I don't really care. But I still want to use this space to record my thoughts.
My life is radically different than it was 3, 6, 12 months ago. I got a new job. The one I wanted! I moved. I'm moving in with my boyfriend (still weird to even say that word!). We are raising a guide dog puppy. Everything in my life seems to be going well.
But it's so hard to make decision on your own when you know you are disappointing people. I'm working on getting over that. It's also hard to work in a rigid environment. But I'm working on getting over that as well.
I wake up every morning and remember that I am in charge of me being happy. And if I make choices with the purpose of loving and being happy, then I truly believe things will work out. For now, it's a daily thing. Hopefully it will become a habit.
To be nobody but yourself in a world which is doing its best, night and day, to make you everybody else means to fight the hardest battle which any human being can fight; and never stop fighting.
e.e. cummings
e.e. cummings